You were not alone then; you are not alone now. There are 20 million vets who would give their lives for you. PLEASE, don't take yours.

After a traumatic experience, feeling frightened, sad, anxious, and disconnected is normal. But if the upset doesn't fade and you feel stuck with a constant sense of danger and painful memories, you may have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). It can seem like you'll never get over what happened or feel normal again.
This is why we have created the "buddy-buddy" program. Veterans like you that have shared a similar experience or trauma in one of our nation's many conflicts are available to talk with you openly and privately and help you deal with issues associated with your experience.
Please call if you are struggling, in pain, or need to talk.

Veterans Affairs 
          Veterans Crisis Hotline 1 (800) 273-8255 press "1."
          Veterans CHAT 
          Veterans TEXT   838255